[wish you would step back from that ledge,my friend.]

i dont know if it'll really help to write my feelings and emotions in this blog,or rather,anywhere at all.
coz keeping it inside seem to burden less people.
and maybe its not a very healthy thing,but it helps other people in a way,i think.
then i realise that its not just posting your feelings on your blogs.
i realise that blogs,be it girls or boys posting,it centers around them,me,myself. lies,gossip,hurtful things,and hypocrypitical views.
i dont know,whatever you see as a typical 'blog', its you to say.
so yeah. you dont have to read everything, coz its better this way. but incase you think i have no emotion,or im just...i dont know...*some mean cruel HURTFUL comment/insult/shit* (lol.)
then you can think whatever you want.
coz i proudly say i have back up.
btw,its not healthy to keep writting about emo stuff on your blog. so,*happy thoughts*
*happy thoughts*

here's my shit.


''maybe listening sad songs on the internet will make it feel better. maybe after crying alot,all the water would just dissapear,so crying would never be possible again. maybe im trying real hard to live the day.maybe its hard to smile but i do it anyway. smiling makes people happy. and maybe i know the affairs of the heart. maybe i know too much. maybe i know too little. maybe because he,she,me,it doesnt really matter anymore. maybe making it too emotional is too much. maybe theres something else to hurt. maybe hate, maybe being selfish. maybe,but anything but hurt-again. maybe im sad,but im not weak. maybe i am weak after all. maybe im always the hindrance in every love story. maybe im always the obstical. maybe because alone seems so familiar. maybe when i try,its always or either to much or too little. maybe people should be nicer,friendlier,and didnt gossip, or talk behind each others backs. maybe im clueless of what im doing.maybe i scold you all secretly infront of the mirror,maybe i think its okay,so i try to hide it. maybe you're a horrible friend. maybe if i try to make it better. maybe i did try,but youre not. maybe all this hurt, im just thinking to much. maybe you should have done something. maybe someone cheered me up for a change. maybe crying just works for me. maybe lies arnt so bad after all,if it was gunna hurt me so, if it was gunna make me alittle farther from you,if it was gunna make me even try so hard to love you back,so that things would be the same. maybe i cant take it anymore. maybe im trying to conceal it. maybe im trying to think,act like everythings okay. maybe im from another universe. maybe im different. maybe im not normal. maybe when you say,'you're normal'in your heart, you mean to say '' youre just like everybody else. youre just you. you dont matter. youre just the crowd. youre just the crowd im stuck in. so i'll just do with you,normal person. i'll do better than you. i'll achieve more than you than you'll ever in a life time.i dont care,as long im at the top. i dont care if youre hurt,my happiness is more important. oh im gunna make it dramatic and win the sympathy of others, youre the bad guy here.'' maybe somethings wrong with me. maybe im not perfect,and so are you. maybe what i say are lies. because the truth hurts so much more. and this truth,will continue breaking my heart. breaking. breaking. breaking. maybe coz if i smile,be happy,and surround myself around with friends,then everything would be replaced with happy moments.''

maybe all this gave you a new light towards me. maybe it'll just make you hate me more. i dont know.
i know all this will make you think im an emo sap, with no backbone.
one glance and say,
''emo people suck.'' press [x] on the browser, and go somewhere else.
or just LOL. because its funny that i have emotion, or because you think of me as a big joke.

whatever it is to you, i wont care.

coz whatever the obstical,i know i have God on my side.
and no way are you ever gunna make me change that.
im gunna cast my cares unto him,and smile.
(i suggest you should too.)

=) like this.

(: and this.

:> and this.

:D and this.

C: and some of this.

:p and some of that.


lol....im being a moron arnt i?

haha,sorry,im a making in progress.



ps: i dont want to cut ties, but you being like this, izznt making it any easier. so please, even so, just give me sometime. okay? coz i hurt sometimes too. and im making my say. and i shldnt be apologising this time.