I think blogging is really an effective way to talk when you dont know who to talk to about your problems and well...sometimes you just wanna let it out, tell someone, if anyone, how you really feel.

Well, i hope someone sees this, then again, i hope no one does.
anyway, i really wanna write songs but i cant seem to find out why i cant.
it's like something's been sucked out of my life.
yep. feeling pretty down right now.
not in the best shape.
i really really wanna be selfish and say that everything's about me, but then again,
it's not about me. im not that great of a person anyway.
i'd probably not know what someone truely thinks about me.
whether they actually like me, or whether they're actually faking it.
sometimes they're nice to me, and then the next they're not.
they just leave without telling me the problem.
then the next moment, come back like everything's fine.
i really hate the inconsistancy.
it feels like part of me isnt ok.

anyway, i just want to get whatever confirmation i can get.
i dont wanna be in confusion, trying to guess all the time.
maybe, just maybe, im alittle tired of it all.

sure, i can say "but life's like that!"
but no. im betting life's more than that.
life's more than just sorrow.

see that? it's me talking out of my situation.
wish i could give myself better advice.

i really do hope things get better in time.
(it usually does, thank God. it's always these short-term times where i feel an urge to pen down my thoughts to this sleeping world i write to. but yes, it does make me feel better, nonetheless.)

I'll be positive in the morning. :)